well, hello there, i have been on quite the journey.........i had no idea things would turn out this way, but now that they have i am making the best of it. through certain events i have learned that i was always acting and speaking in ways that were not me. i was a totally different person and it was this way for so long that i lost who i really was. And because of some things i have been cut off from many people. But like i said i've been making the best of it. for the past few years, my favorite movies were not my favorite movies. my favorite colors were not my favorite colors. They were the ones of others around me and thats not right. So here's what i did.........i wrote down every movie i could remember seeing. (it took a few days) and i thought about each one and i picked out MY favorites. And then i painted a picture using every color i could think of and i picked my favorites. So i am trying to find myself. i am exploring different hobbies such as making neclaces with hemp and other things. This adventure is just beginning but i look forward to discovering more as life goes on.

i've been cut off from my friends so long. and now i am reading their journals and finding out stuff that breaks my heart. i only wish i could be there for those that are struggling.............BUT i want to let my friends know that i do love them and i will be here for you as much as i can......... i am so sorry i screwed up and almost lost you...............and now if only things could get better..............but they wont........i know that i just wish they would.......